lalalalala~~~~~~ I'm dwindling my time away again here at my mum's office. :)

Econs mock was oh well, a waste of time. and I've got one of mr G's eyeballs. urgh. But, i shall still pesevere till 6 the next morning. My last night mugging so might as well just go all the way! I've gotta go back to my normal routine. Don't wanna be jet-lagged.

There's a gathering at my house tmr for the netball girls. oh sigh. i'd be some nerd who locks herself in the room to study. boo. Well after that they'll be going to play the finals of the intercon. They're sure to win. but still i wouldn't miss it for the world! just realised i've been an ardent supporter for like the past million years. yay.

oh yah yesterday when i was the telephone operator for four hours or so, there was this guy in the office who thought i had just joined the company so he came over and shook my hand to say welcome. Then i nearly whacked him for his stupidity. Why would i appear for work wearing a shirt that had three monkeys in front!!!!!??????

Anyway, Jason is mad. he just called to tell me he was standing in front of the shop angie the choice. follwed by.. angie's choice is.... S*****. gee! *stabs jason and anne* cos i heard her laughing in the background. how was novena anyway?

Blogger has gone mad. the current space i have now for typing a new post is say.. 2cm in height!!? I can only see one line and that's it. sigh. oh yes dot! hahaha... i'll tell you what mr lian said when i gove him the cup. he'll probably come up with some lame thing then we'll all roll our eyes. haha... like hello mr lian.. here's a gift for you after one million years since we bought it. :) :)

Thanks janice, for cheering me up. :)

Gosh! It's one mm now and i can't see a thing so i'm just going by intuition. that's it.

Yans! I'm doing some part time telephone operator thing for my mum's office now till ten before scootering off to the lib. haha! It's fun!

Happy halloween!!! BOO!

Sometimes i wish you would just go away.

I'm half hearted about this entry, but since i've decided to put it behind me i shall just go ahead with it.

Hui says hi! and like, JALOBI!

Er.. it was meant to be some serious entry but I'm in the lib and so say HELLO to hui. She seems really chirpy today. :)

Anyway, I've decided to close the door on this emotional ride that has taken me through 10 months or so. A long time for me to have sustained a liking for someone, but yup it's officially over.

I wanted to go out wiht him so much, and when i finally did it was crap. His childish behaviour put me off totally, and not to mention all his insensitive and curt comments that could have been done without. I guess it's true when they say love transcends all boundaries. Ask me why i like him, and i'll have to think for quite a while. Yet in a minute i can probably come up with a million things i hate about him.

So there you are. I came to a decision to shut the door at exactly three this morning, and i feel released as a matter of fact. Something which i've been keeping secret for 10 months shall now be revealed. Perhaps cher or mimi who know who i'm referring to may think i've made the wrong decision in saying it here for i know people will ask, but I don't want to hide anymore. It's tiring.

Cheers to a new beginning then! Put the past behind and oh well as usual, work towards the damn-ed A's. I'm feeling a little unbalanced today due to the lack of sleep. But, at least a burden's off my chest.

Know what's the ONE thing i'm dying to do now? Sqiush ryan.

And.. HAPPY BIRTHDAY YANS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! *gives her back a boobless bear hug* heh. Thanks for being such a sweetie.

Maybe one day i'll grow to regret what i've done all this while, but i can't turn back time.

Just got news that my sis clinched the scholarship. CONGRATULATIONS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

omg. omg. omg. guess you must be jumping up and down over there. You'll finally get a taste of kobe beef, and i am so coming to visit you no matter what. :) :) :)

I feel your excitement, i feel your euphoria. Oh gosh, bliss. It was well deserved.

ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I just realised friday is deepavali so there goes my day out with cher. boo.

I'm jealous of my mum's new phone. boo.

My head is heavy and I'm feeling all woozy. Maybe i shouldn't have taken that short little nap on the table in the reading room. It's so nice and quiet in there today, esp when it's eight in the morning and there are about ten people present in that huge room.

Anyway so here i am in the library cos i decided to take a walk. Then i realised i forgot to bring my hp. Just as well, one day of retreat from technology. I feel quite empty though.

Yans.... my class mag too has almost ALL entries with reference to an explicit word associated with ping pong balls. I think ten years on when we read this class mag again we'll probably laugh our heads off. :)

Haha... my parents are anne's idols? bunz... i think they're lame jokes are quite different from yours.. Most of theirs refer to farts. yah FARTS.... Fart analysers la those two.

I can't wait for friday. Need to get out onto those streets, get a top, some birthday presents, and collect my hubby strahler. If he is still there i hope.

It's quiet in school today... or maybe it's just a little too early to say. My legs are still aching from the sudden exercise. *groan* But, it was quite fun walking through the jungle trek at bukit timah hill with aunty june and uncle john's wife (sorry i forgot her name). They're in their forties, and so they were bitching about their husbands and children, it was really funny to eavesdrop and add on. :)

Oh yes i realised i had forgotten to mention that diana has given birth to a squishingly cute baby boy named ryan. Jason and cher would know of my infatuation with squishing babies. heh. We've had much talk about pregnancies and stuff. hilarious. :) Nevertheless, congratulations!!!!!! I'm very sore about having to miss his "man yue" celebration party, but i'll come right after the A's to squish him. :) :) :)

It's back to the reading room then!

Tanya!!! I received your mail and I've replied to it already. So go check ok?

Sigh. I'm beginning to miss everybody already, and it's only be one day. haha.. Wish i could write a little something about everyone here, but my mum is nagging behind.

The photos are out! and some were really funny. Wayne-shan lin and her beloved pony... classic pic. and yans and her.. potato... that pic turned out pretty well too! It's more of a roll of film of the lovers. I'm missing germie and saipong, and lydia and jason though. :)

It was great fun taking all those pics yesterday, and we practically went crazy. Hey jason, one day we must do that swing thing again. It was really fun. haha... try it on yanping.. she'll fly straight to mars.

MARChe serves very very good food. Especially the waffle and the maple syrup that left me, ailin and yans slumped on the chair proclaiming BLISS. Oh yes, and for the first time in history, 20 people turned up for class outing. very fascinating.

I went to bed singing halleluia. Why? Because yesterday, was a VERY blissful (right cher and yans?) day indeed. cheers!

I tired very hard not to get sentimental but i failed. It proved too much for me as i looked at mrs wong give mr wee a big hug and a huge bouquet of flowers. I love mr wee. His sweet and funny 'old man' ways have never failed to brighten up my days. And the thing i love most about him is just the fact that he is one individual who is so strong in character that he can make you change your opinion of him in a very positive manner.

I started off hating him cos he was never really quite encouraging. But after spending two years with him, he has proven himself to be a caring and devoted teacher. He didn't need to organise all the class activitied for us, he didn't need to spend time sharing all his stories with us. But he did, and i love him for that.

Yesterday was horrid. Everything just came in a swirl and i felt like i was caught in the eye of a cyclone. My heart hasn't settled, and i'm still plauged with the same problems. There's no way i can escape them, but i can't find a way to face them either. I'm just so trapped, my heart seems to have grown weaker. No more drive or enthusiasm within me, no more smiles or laughter.

Well at least i had a good night's sleep. Went for Wai's birthday dinner, and then to the airport to pick my dad up. Oh yes... happy birthday wai.. and thanks for the dinner. Hope your tattoo heals soon! Mighty brave of you! :) I woke up this morning and gazed at the pretty clouds that floated by. They were grey, but there was just this opening between the thick layer where light shined through and it just somehow inspired me.

Then i thought, if light could find a way through such thick opaque clouds, I'm sure i can find a way out of my mess as well. I don't know how but i will and i can. I pray every night for god to free me of distractions and just concentrate on what's important. bad prayer huh? everything seems important.

Anyway thanks janice! for that very pretty bracelet. It's on my wrist now. :)

I'm going for a haircut tomorrow despite much protest from ailin. haha. I can't stand the messy-ness and lack of style of it now. But guess i'll still try to maintain the length for grad.night. Let's hope a change in hairstyle might bring about better prospects.

Meanwhile, I'm off to meet shell as well as write some little notes for all my classmates. I'm going to miss them all.

CONGRATULATIONS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! to the one and only yans... who passed her piano exams with unexpectedly superb grades. See yans, a good haircut bodes well. haha! Let's have fun eating roti prata tmr. hopefully. And i feel honoured being your one and only link so far.. :)

Had fun pasting photos and singing today. Lovely songs, and hopefully we won't be an embarrassment tmr. I know we won't. Anyway our class mag is up and it's very pretty indeed. Go check out the front page. It's done by the ever-arty anne!

Did you know? that grace has got very talented cousins? they starred in forbidden bity and now on the channel eight show at nine. they're the kids of hong hui fang. Yup, the ones that stone all the time. I shall go have a look tonight. Had a difficult time figuring them out at forbidden city given the fact that i felt like i was pregnant.

My throat feels bloody. *yeaurgh* Anyway mimi! Do take care of yourself!!!!! we all missed you at school today. Do come back soon yah!? And i have so many unspoken words to you that i do not know how to phrase. Well, whatever it is, as long as you're happy, then everything is fine. I just want you to be happy and not suppress or ignore your own feelings. love ya!

Have i ever said that i love everyone to bits? I do.

What started off as a mundane night ended up with my heart pounding against a somewhat non-existent chest. Something insignificant, but yet exciting in it's own way. I won fifty bloody bucks from class 95!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! and a radio card.

*sings halleluia like a billion times*

Yup i was studying when i decided to call in for the cashcall thing. It was quite embarrassing though. he addressed me as angie lim from jurong west. Gee.. couldn't have phrased it in a more tactful way.

But it was exciting nonetheless. so, now would somebody tell me what's the use of a radiocard? i've been missing from this world for quite sometime.

somehow school drains the hell outta me even though it gets quite boring. And i just want to say a BIG thank you to mrs potato... She's my source of life when it comes to eerie nights. thanks honey for always being there. :)

And sis.... don't worry too much. has he replied to your mail yet? If you want i can ask for you, but be prepared for a half answer.. can't wait for you to come back. It's been such a long time since i last saw you. :) :)

I love the forbidden city soundtrack to bits. thanks zai.

I HATE BLOGGER. just has to do this to me when i'm feeling all crushed and grumpy insisde.

I hate it. i hate it. i hate it.

Too many things to do so little time to spare.

Sorry kel, bel and tess. I haven't had any chance at all to reply to your mails. Take care all you guys and best of luck for the exams. esp bel. guess it's beginning in two days right?

rip my stomach please.

I'm internet deprived and my stomach is growling.

Sigh. The prelim results weren't any cause for celebration at all as expected. And i still don't feel motivated or anything to get down to serious studying. help.

I find it increasingly hard to cope with certain things that i should do but cannot bring myself to do. So dear to me yet i choose to shun away for fear of hurting the person even more. I just pray for peace and tranquility of the mind to stay focussed and ignore the rest. or for the time being at least.

Mt stomach has been haywire and i feel like i should have just ripped it out in the first place.

And germaine!! sai pong is sitting next to me. hduf.

Bust the stress as the speaker said this morning. I'd say, bust the hemline mrs kang. She made me nauseated with her skirt slit that went up to giddy heights.

As each day dwindles by, my heart weakens and my spirit withers away...